Sleepy

Yesterday was awesome as is every day with Emily. I woke up at 900, even though I was supposed to wake up at 800, and made way to Emily's house at rapid rice rocket Corolla speed. I got there about 925 and plopped down in bed with her (not my Corolla) and we kissed a little bit and fell asleep in each other's arms. I love that feeling of closeness that we feel for each other. It's always hard to sleep without her now. Every night I get home at 230 in the morning and, although I might have been dead tired when I left her apartment, I am always awake without a chance in hell to get to sleep for the next half of an hour or unless I am dead DEAD tired.
So after we woke up at 1...
Wait, pause. There are alot of old people in the student union...lol, funny shit. Must be a Depends convention or something...
...we laid around and talked, joked like we usually do, got a bit more comfortable and closer like we always end up doing and had a bit of a "workout"...a few miles up and back. So after that, it was 400 (I did say a few miles, correct?) and we were hungry as shit, because we all know shit gets very hungry. So, about 5, we went to China Jade buffet, had a nice grub session, and laughed about stupid shit and some funny stuff too. After, we had originally planned to go look at some tattoo and piercing parlors, but I guess the early sunset causes you to get lazy and plan on doing stuff another day.
Oh, by the way, I plan to get my tongue pierced if i didnt already mentioned. I'm lacking in things that set me apart from childhood, and my 19th birthday is coming up, so i plan to do something farfetched as piercing my tongue to actually make more of my birthday than just another boring year of my life. And this year has been one filled with change and new experiences, so why quit now, I'm on a roll...butter me up baby! Someone asked me if it was because I am dating Emily. Well, to be honest, yes! But not because she is crazy (which she is crazy/sexy/cool) and she doesnt have any piercings (though she was thinking about getting one with me). It's because I can be myself around her and be crazy like I used to be before family, school and the rest of the fucked up society deemed me as the glue that holds everything together so that my image might be one to inspire or to keep sanity. But im sick and tired of that bullshit insanity that they place upon me just because I have a brain and a heart that isnt concerned with money, appearance or wanton arrogance. So im gonna blow everyone's mind, especially my parents who assume that I am supposed to be the good one (even though I am and I will always be, because a piercing is not a representation of evil but only a need to separate onesself from the ordinary bullshit of everyday life).
Ok, gotta go, Emily is getting fidgety waiting for me to finish...so ill explain later, or whenever I come off of this high that the girl next to me gives me by looking at me and being anxious to be with me!

I win

I am so wide awake its not even funny! and its 420 yet again...I swear everytime I look at the clock its 420...coincidence or irony?
Crowding my mind with excitement....
Its a beautiful thing---a tear drop---illuminates the eye ten times more than normal and magnifies the heart by a million. Its feel against human skin, so soft and cool; its taste salty yet sweet upon a kiss of true passion. I've been given the greatest gift on earth and I couldn't be happier! Love surpasses all that is good in life and creates its own level of magnificence. I could cry my eyes out for that feeling once more, the feeling of new life; a candle lit within burning bright as a beacon to guide her closer to my soul. I hope she knows the extent to which I am in love with her. I know it is crazy to begin with, but what beauty isn't in life if it isn't a bit unrealistic. I crave it, I feel it, I live it, I love it, I love you more than you'll ever know. I win...

Money

After spending thousands of dollars on useless crap, you begin to realize that your previous notion that steers you away from the importance of money was correct all along. I have never been one to care about money at all, really it is just something to obtain and spend for ones own personal benefit or for the benefit of someone else. I walked into my room tonight after being on time for my crappy curfew and I took in all that I had purchased in the last year: Laptop, new car (payments that is), 32 inch flat screen tv, surround sound system, playstation and games to humor it, guitar and guitar books, random items to act as accessories for the things I bought (especially on my car) and recently an Ipod. Out of all of those things, I think Ill use my Ipod the most, only because I appreciate music and sound alot. You can see that common trend in everything I bought, including the sound system in my car yet to be upgraded. But when it gets right down to it, I never watch tv, never play games, practice guitar as much as I used to, and hardly work on my car. You can only discover why when you are walking hand in hand with a beautiful blond bombshell with everything to offer, including thousands and thousands of hours worth only the most priceless hapiness in all of the world. I only bought crap like that to keep me busy because I was lacking something that made me complete. I guess I needed that extra 20 inches of viewing space and the extra sound coverage to see that money cannot compare to all of the amazing things you will experience in life when you are in love. I practiced the same old notes on my guitar only to discover a new way to make music by strumming the strings of the soul, connecting each riff to the next by means of laying each finger softly on the right place to achieve the proper tone that rings in my ears constantly when I see her.
If I could ever offer any advice to anyone, it would be this: Money really is only meant to keep yourself alive by the bare necessities, keep alive those you love by giving with thought and compassion rather than price and value, and to spend on new experiences because the world we live in puts a price on some of those things which really should be free. Money can't provide the type of euphoria that two in love can live from day to day together, always there for one another ontop a silky cloud high above those who will never understand the sentiments that are felt along the magic carpet ride that life will bring for you to charter with that special someone. And don't give up if you haven't found someone to discover that with. Some love doesn't always work, and you can't make it work if it won't. There will always be another chance. Stick to love only if it feels right in every possible way on both sides of the relationship. And if a bump comes along, learn from it, fix it, and stray from it forever. Just steer clear of the really bumpy roads where there will be no turning back and your shocks will feel the most costly of damage. Don't live in an illusion of love where there is no today worth being happy for. One day, from nowhere, someone will show and smile your way, connecting instantaneously with your eyes and the butterflies will soar in your stomachs. Only a connection as unique for two people as that is worth pursuing and worth waiting for. Use patience for that reason, because the divine plan that this world operates upon loves to surprise and shock those prepared for a life ahead of them looking for the wrong things. So know that your time, your chance, your lucky choice, your connection will come once upon a time when you least expect it and your life seems to lack something. Make the best of what you have and never be selfish, because that something that stirs you inside may not be there tomorrow. Be grateful for that or the something that gives you reason, purpose, knowledge, logic and experience in your life. I'm gonna go with my good buddy Forest on this one: "Life is like a box of chocolates; you never know what you're gonna get" and just when you think you do, its gonna be the coconut if you don't cherish it, but the cherry if you pick it out delicately and with patience. "Me and Kitty 'like peas and carrots"

New Years Resolution

My new years resolution is to enjoy life to its fullest and get rid of the unhapiness in my life. Well, I guess I already fulfilled that resolution then. I couldn't be any happier in this new year. Though I didn't have to wait for the ball to drop to find that out. I could have pointed that out to myself and the 6 others (moreso one in particular who already feels it) with just a locking of the lips and a grasp of the heart. I knew it was coming. It was just right and meant to happen. My first kiss into a new year: Buzzed a bunch, but still ready to accept the responsibility that my life has changed and I can handle it. Tell THAT to my parents! Tell them that I couldn't be happier with the love I have been given and the happiness that trails from its back end and walks in front of it. Tell them that the mere sight of this beautiful lady drives me to insanity but leads me to be sane all in one. You know what I am talking about with the good insanity? The kind that drives you crazy thinking how you can be nuts about a person and always want to learn more and more and more and more each second, starving for knowledge without books or lecturing, knowing that only good can come from such a connection of two souls and that enjoyment of life can be shared under one love continuously. I can only know that such a feeling will never fade into the darkness and that it will nott detach itself from that which means us to be together. It's just too perfect, although that is what sometimes scares me. But fuck fear! I look him straight in the face and tell him to go to hell where all bad feelings come from. Perfection is just what fits in this feeling of extreme hapiness, and it shall for however long we are all meant to be happy in this world by whoever up there decides it to be. It seems that two in love can conquer the world, especially when a connection exists outside of the physical world, put high above all others and away from any interference from the psychotic society we live in. So I therefore take my place as Prince and she my Princess. My first order of business, get everyone more drunk and let them eat cake (unless its chocolate).