Blinded by weakness

You know when you realize something that is earth-shattering, so much that it hits you like a ton of bricks? And when you haven't cried for years, and still have yet to, it just weighs down on your soul as if you tied an anchor to it. I cannot wait to pick up this book called Wild At Heart. I'm sick and tired of being the boy and nice guy that I am. I just want to grow up already and be a man instead of this wuss that cannot think straight to save his life. Talk about doublemindedness...its almost as if the comfort level of being in that state has left me complacent to both sides of the token and now I've just settled for average. I know what I want, and I know how to get it. So why do I stop at everything on my road towards it? I thought I would have taken a better path towards self-discipline and growing myself. But apparently I took an easier route that felt better rather than treading over the jagged rocks that we must travel to get to the promised land.
Its easier just to not grow up and avoid facing the music, but eventually the band is going to catch up to you and blast out your ear drums. I've come to realize that if I don't grow up, then there is the likelihood that my family and those who look up to me (however many or few, I do not know, but I know of one special to me) will suffer greatly. So I wear this role with pride and will struggle so that others do not have to, but I will be strong enough to not weaken anyone by taking all the burden. My hopes in this life are to offer up solutions from my own situations without making the wrong decisions. But when you are all about serving other people and a higher purpose, you cannot ever make wrong decisions when looking to benefit others.
It's time to live up to the definition of a man and lead my family-to-be. Lead by example, right?

Transitions

Everyone comes to a crossroads of life, more often than not, where there must be major decisions that can either threaten or strengthen certain areas of life. It might cause you to deviate from the correct path or take a longer road to the goal you had once set out for yourself. You think you have it all right, and just when it all seems like it is going great, a challenge arises to test your faith and your mental fortitude. What makes us men and women is how we react to those obstacles and get back up. I've always talked about kicking the dust off of your pants after a fall like one of those. But sometimes the dirt hardens on your pant legs. Only a complete and cleansing wash will start its appearance over, fresh, and its wear can now be truly measured amongst the microscopic threads that have been woven in to create it, the canvas of our life's design.



So why is it that those who are destined for greatness always seem to stumble over the obstacles that the masses of people might not ever see? Its called a test of faith, a trial of testimony, where respect is earned and pride is made humble in its hidden, unwavering confidence.



Words get heavier, sentences will weigh you down when those who love you and only care for you doubt in themselves and thus must bring you down with them. Just because they cannot do it does not mean you cannot. But because they cannot then they will never believe in you as much as you do. Or, better yet, ask someone successful and with fruit on the tree their opinion and see the difference in your self image after you talk with them. For it is those who have done and not settled with trying that will encourage the life into you and believe in you more than anyone else has. Comforting that the support exists, but good luck finding it among the sea of average decisions, speech and situations. The 2 percent are willing to do what the 98 percent ARE NOT willing to do to have what the 98 percent will never have. Bottom line.



I wish I knew these principles as a kid. Install a winner's spirit into every child's drive and watch them grow into a mainframe of intelligence, determination, courage, honor, innovation and powerful thinking. Makes me wonder if our world tries to hide those who make a difference (and the secrets to be one) to keep us held back simply to support a barely self-sustaining economy that defines America today. Keep the innovators of the day held to most of the burden and challenge in the system and watch them grow stronger...because you cannot keep a winner from winning, and the winner will only get stronger in his preparation for the win. He know's he has already won; now is the time to fill in the storybook of blank chapters that lead up to it. Comfort lies in knowing that you are the author of your story and that, with the enlightenment of our purpose on Earth, we write our endings way before we ever touch the surface of our beginnings. We are all born into excellence. There is the only absolute truth, one that most are afraid to believe.



Why do you not dream? Because dreams are for the untainted minds of society that have yet to experience the fears and doubts of average America. Uncommon dreams exist outside of the realm of fear and doubt, and that is why most children will think bigger than most men; men that think retiring with a 401k or barely supporting his ENTIRE family by means of the political 9-5 will provide all his necessities. Men become bigger when they dig to their roots, tear themselves open, and rearrange their minds to think and believe what we were born into believing before the big world shattered it all. Our World is of an all-knowing, ever-supportive God who destines us all for larger-than-life living until it is stripped from us like a child robbed of his rattle. It is the only thing we have to transform us into what we want and, for that reason, investment into the mind and transforming one's thoughts to mimic those of pure positivity is where we all must focus to have what we truly WANT, not need. The want becomes the need, the need becomes the why and the why becomes the secret indicator that you will make it no matter what.