Confusion

What do you do when you are in love with someone who isn't ready to love you the same? Or do you even know if they love you the same and they are just not ready to take on the extreme amount of hapiness. Are you supposed to move on with your life, or hang by an underappreciated thread that holds you high above a fiery pit of agony. I mean, seriously, what the fuck do you do?

I love the girl with all of my heart. My heart always belongs to her no matter what. It seems that I cannot escape that. But here she is going away every so often and fucking this guy like he's something, yet she comes back to me and longs for me to hold her in my arms. Ironic? Where do you find comfort in such an idea? A notion of solice and recluse? Not possible in my mind. That's what makes me feel like it's time to just ditch the notion that I wanna be with this beautifully amazing woman. Like I could ever want to hang on and wait for such a thing. That's not fair to me, a man who is willing to give this woman the world and she knows it. She needs to see what she has in front of her and stop looking out into nothingness like she can find something. And if she is looking for something, why do I feel like she loves me more everyday? A good loving relationship cannot operate off of this alone. Maybe for three months, but times up. There exists no more minutes because someone else has offered me a chance to be wanted and appreciated for who I am.

No one deserves to not be given a chance. Especially if they make you smile. Ya know, you make me smile all the time...but its too good to be true when you aren't mine. Most people understand that, but you decide to take the promiscuous route. I mean, by all means, take your time, but don't complain when I am trying to find my own superficial route to temporary enjoyment...like you. Don't kid yourself. You aren't that ridiculous. You have a rational brain...thats what brought us to meet each other in the first place; denying all the odds in favor of a love that could not exist otherwise without letting it just happen. You only find that once in a lifetime it seems.

Just figure out your confusion and let me know when you are ready to talk turkey.